Getting Past the Exhaustion

How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world. –ย Anne Frank

Such an inspiring quote. The thought that I can do even a little something right now, right this very instant to make things better. Smile at a stranger. Laugh with my two year old. Help someone in need.

I love it. And it’s something I want to remind myself over and over until I really “get it” because it’s simple and powerful.

Yet sometimes I see stuff like this and I just feel exhausted at the thought of it. If I’m to be honest, this thought of exhaustion, tiredness, or of the effort that something takes, I focus on that WAY too much. I’m not proud to say that, not at all, but it’s what happens to me.

Anyone else just feel exhausted thinking about such things? I can’t be alone on this one.

Don’t get me wrong this feeling of exhaustion isn’t limited to saving the world. It creeps in at 10pm when there is a sink full of dishes. It creeps in when there are important phone calls I need to make. It creeps in at the thought of cleaning the closet in my boys room. Or when I think about opening a youth center in my town.

The funny thing is that the thing that is actually exhausting is the fact that I don’t do those things. It’s more exhausting to leave the tasks alone and sit on the couch and flip through Facebook. It’s more exhausting to hit the snooze button 17 times or to wake up to a sink full of dishes that you, yet again, have no intention of starting because – it’s too exhausting.

I know I’ve trained myself to think this way and it’s something that I don’t even consciously think about most days but looking at my life I can see it’s there and it needs to change if I’m going to go forward instead of in circles.

How do we get past these thoughts?

For me, I need to remind myself of the truth instead of the lie.

The lie: Doing that project, or choosing happiness, or changing the world is too exhausting.
The Truth: “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” Galations 6:9

The lie: It doesn’t matter if I do my dishes(or laundry or cleaning the car etc) or not because nobody will see.
The Truth: “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men” Colossians 3:23

That’s great for the mental attack I get at the thought of something but there is one sure fire way I can attack my exhaustion (or rather perceived exhaustion) that seems to work every time. I simply get up and do some thing. It doesn’t matter what. And yes it’s sometimes harder than it sounds, but it works.

I have to remind myself that motion begets motion. An object in motion will stay in motion until a force stops it. See what I’m getting at here? The more you start, the more you finish. The more you finish the better you feel about yourself. The better you feel about yourself the less exhausted you feel and when you feel less exhausted you change the world.

I’m beginning to realize I’ve spent too much time not doing things because I was scared it was going to be too much for me. Or because of a myriad of other fears I’m sure. I NEED to remind myself that I have not been given a spirit of fear but that of love, power and a sound mind.

At the end of the day I’d rather actually be exhausted because I did things that will change the world than be exhausted because I played on my phone all day. Even if the only world I am changing at the moment is my own home, or the lives of my children, it’s all important and it’s all worth it.

So here’s to an exhausting life – I hope you live one too! ๐Ÿ™‚

What makes you feel absolutely exhausted at the thought of it? What ways have you combated that?

– Jess ๐Ÿ™‚

 

Thanks-Giving

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In the past 72 hours we’ve been collecting turkeys and food, packing boxes, finding families, delivering meals, bringing hope, joy and love to our community.

We are doing the work that God wants us to do and He’s showed up in a HUGE way! So why oh why would I even doubt for a second that we would get our dinner together. Why I even stop to think about us. And yet despite all the wonderful work that needs to be done today I have been consumed by the thought of me and my family and what WE need. Well played Devil, well played.

You planted a seed, had a friend ask a question and that brought insecurity and re-focused my thoughts inward instead of outward. Luckily I caught it before I really went off the deep-end and can now reset my eyes on Jesus.

Now I’m not saying that putting a meal on the table for my family is a bad thing to think about, but when I ended up being more consumed with making sure that I had cranberry sauce more so than focusing on getting the meals for families who have no idea where thanksgiving is coming from or hope that it may even come.

I needed a reset – because really thankfully we have the means to buy what we need, we’re short on time but I don’t believe for a second that God won’t provide for us as well. He’s providing for so many through us. It’s a privilege and an honor beyond my wildest dreams.

So I’m back at it – not sure what else God has for me today but I know that my eyes are on Him!